Let's Not

Saying that at this moment is for the last time to you whom I loved so much . Even if you try to turn back time , even if you hold onto me crying , I was the one who said no and bid our farewell . I always act strong but I’m a coward who didn't have the confidence to protect you forever and left . Don’t love someone like me again . Don’t make someone to miss again . Go and meet someone who loves you so much till they can’t go a day without you . Please ... It's hurt when you try to hold me back  but I’m a coward who doesn't have the confidence to give happiness to anyone beside you . Even if we are ever to regret our breakup , I can’t do anything but give you our last farewell . Don’t cry in pain , counting the time that’s passed . Don’t miss a foolish love that’s already passed . Go and  meet someone who loves you so much till they can’t go a day without you .  Please , I hope that you’ll be happy . Let’s never meet again ...

I already know about it . I even ask and you deny it . It's okay . But I think it's better you tell me the truth . Because I'm okay if you don't want to tell me about that . I just want to know the reason . And you can live happily after telling me the reason . I won't bother you anymore . It's only hurt my heart . Because I already know it and you deny it . It's hurt . Just imagine you face the same situation as me . I know you're the type who does not care but I know your heart will be slightly hurt , rite ? Everyone have feeling and of course , the feeling is mutual when it comes to this kind of situation . I don't know why I am the one who always hurt the most whenever I involve myself in this relationship . People leave me , do not care about me , hate me , annoyed me even though I never do that to anyone . If I do , it is not me who start all this . It's the another person . Sincerely , a person with heart and feeling :)

p/s : Ignore my grammar . I'm like this when I'm emotional .


When I was standing at the end of the world and couldn't see the path , I needed someone .
When I was trapped in the darkness and couldn't see the light ,  I was waiting for the helping hand .
You wouldn't know that you are the only one in the world who is the only one better than the world .
I believe dream for you and me .
You are the long waited rain in my though day . You soaked my heart and gave me courage .
You make me fly and smile again .
Coming into my arms and giving happiness silently just like a rainbow after a shower
I wanna make a love .
When you found out that I ran away were you disappointed ?
I had courage to come back because you were there .
You’re the one always in my heart .
Lonely night , it’s an endless and stuffy dark night .
Those are the days when I cried alone during the dark nights .
In lieu of the people who would only hurt my callow heart and my heart was having a earthquake .
But that’s okay . You make a way .
The person who will be always guiding me is you .
The only reason of living on you .
Within my desert you are my Oasis

Dedicated to : BB

Etude Memory

I was inexperienced when it comes to love , but you accepted me .
I used to not know the meaning of life , until you were beside me .
I didn’t know how to smile , until you made me .
I was cold-hearted , but you changed me .
Boy , you don’t know how much you mean to me .
You are the angel in my life , so please don’t ever leave me .
I love you and only you . You do love me too don’t you ?
Boy , let’s stay like this forever .
You and me , let’s grow old together .
Let’s watch our grandchildren play .
Let’s tell them together our story how it turned out to be okay .
 Thank you for being mine .
I am forever yours .
Hug me tight and never let go .
The two of us will go on forever .
Someday we’ll openly show everyone our love .
When that day comes I will never let go of your hands .
I love you. These past two years has been nothing but bliss .
Thank you 

#HappyAnniversary , Hubby ;)

It's War

I'm not supposed to be here anymore .
I hate the world in this room .
I get pain only by looking .
I get pain only by staring at .
It's not my fault actually .
They didn't know what happened to me .
I don't care about that .
But they didn't know what I actually do .
They take an action without talking to me .
They talk about me without knowing anything about me .
I hate the world of hypocritacy in this room .
Like I told , they just look but never thinks why .
Thank you .
I will never forget the pain .
I appreciate it .
I'll show you the real me .
This is war .

" Maybe your luck will be in your new path or something. " - LuHan ;)