Illa Illa ♥



I love you even as the time goes by . I love you even if the world changes . I'm always glad you stay by my side and protect me . Thank you . Whenever I open my eyes in the morning , I think of you . Starting with a bright smile even after a tiresome day again , I think of you . I'm the happiest person alive . Now I'm not sad . Now I don't cry . I give you my all . I love you . Although I can't stop your tears from falling I'll shed my tears along with you . Let's not be hurt again . Let's not cry again . I give my all to you . Even if we fall a thousand times , even if we collapse again ... We'll get up again . Even if the wind and rain beat down on us , even if darkness falls ... I'll protect you . Because of you , I live another day . Because of you , my heart continues to beat . I shout to the skies that you're the one and only person that I love . I love you 

Who are they ? The angels who always care for her , love her and now ... already become her happiness . Why it's hard for them to tell her ? Because they love her a lot . This girl is sorry for making her angels worry about her . This girl annoy them so much , this girl can't wake from her dream but ... her angels need to know that she also don't want thing like this happened . She never want to be in this situation . She hate to be in this situation . She tried so hard to make her angels to not get annoyed with her ... even this girl asked them so many times . 'Am I annoying?' This girl love to hear the truth because whether it's good or bad ... in the future , there is something better than today . Her angels need to know something too . This girl put so much effort to endure her feeling and this problem is not the only problem that hurt her .There is other problem that hurt her the most . Why such word did not hurt her a bit ? Because she know ...it's for her best and it shows that her angels care for her a lot . Why is this girl crying ? Because if she never cry today , her life will be miserable and she will never realize the truth that she is facing now . Now this girl is blank , she can't choose the path but she know what to do for her future . Her ambition is to be a doctor or a lawyer and she will fulfill her ambition first . This is her future , InsyaAllah . And this girl thanks her angels a lot .

There is an angel , she always make this girl strong enough to face the day .
There is an angel , she always calm this girl's worried and bothersome heart .
There is an angel , acting like she never care but she care for this girl actually .
There is an angel , who work hard to wake this girl from her dream .
There is an angel , who bright the day till this girl didn't know that this angel , love her .
And there is a girl , who can't stop talking about her angels because she love them a lot .

Dear angels , we are meant for each other . If one of us fall , the remaining five will raise that angel up . If one of us is not happy , the remaining five will always care . In this world , where can we meet this angels ? We love each other so much and we believe that we can walk this path together as one . Thanked God that He gather us and make us love each other . It takes another lifetime to find another you , BB :)




Everlasting Sunset


All day you linger in my eyes . Because of you , I can’t do anything . You even appear in my dreams , shaking me up . When I wake up, I search around looking for you . When I see nice clothes when walking down the street , I keep thinking of you . When I’m eating tasty foods , I think of you . When I look at couples on the street , I keep thinking of you . When it’s the free weekend , I think of you . On a good sunny day like today , a date with you . How sweet would that be ? You don’t know that I’m like this . I can’t move closer because you are so much more than me . However , even if you don’t know ... regardless of the fact that I can’t express my heart , I can’t stop myself . Everything looks different because of you . Even the gentle breeze excites me . You don’t know about this love that I started on my own . But because I long for it so much , I believe that it will come true .

It's not that I can't accept the fact that I can't have it . I tried to avoid it even though the memories keep hunting me . Yes , I tried to avoid because I know , something in my body refuse to let it go . My heart ... refuse to let it go . All this time , I am sad not because I can't have it but I am sad knowing the fact that I am like this . Fall in love , I hate this . I don't want to but I guess my heart controlled my mind . It's hard to forget something that had changed you because it will always there . But ... I'm trying to be strong , to fight the memories . Everything happens for a reason . Allah have secured something better for me in the future and I'll wait for it patiently . 

Love is not hurt , loving the wrong one does . Better be with no one than with the wrong one .

Love Disease



Even though you are not here , I still remember all your words . I live my life as you are exist , whispering all the words to me . When will you send me your letter ? I will wait till your love confession comes . My heart breaks when I remember all the love we build together . Should I just forget because you are already gone ? Even though you leave without your will but my heart still feel that you're so cruel when you leave me with our love note . When will I accept your absence ? I will burn and destroy all the memories . Dear , I beg you to leave me with the memories . Just go to where you belong . There will be something better for you and me . Just go ...

Maybe this is my fate . Adoring without being loved . It's okay for me as long as you are happy with your life . I have keep that feeling for you for a long time . Waiting for you to embrace me . It's okay for me . Loving you is a happiness for me . I want you to know that I am here , waiting for you . Even though I have to wait till the end of time , I hope this feeling will be last forever . Let me hug you for this time to forbid you a goodbye forever and let this feeling of happiness last for a while .


Memories

 
We were in love , weren’t we ? All those days we spent together . We shared our pain , didn’t we ? Even when we didn’t know what was wrong . Where are you now ? Don’t you hear my voice ? My aching heart searches for you . It calls out for you , it’s going crazy . My heart , my tears . Again the memory of you drop by drop fall onto my chest . I cry and cry and these memories can’t be erased . Today my empty heart is drenched again . We liked each other , didn’t we ? I used to make you laugh just by smiling . We cried together , didn’t we ? You would hurt too when you saw my tears . Where are you now ? Don’t you see how exhausted I am ? My aching heart searches for you . It calls out for you , it’s going crazy . Won’t you come back to me?  Every day I call out your name . As I wait and exhausted , I wander and look for you . My love , my tears , my memories is with you .
 
Annyeong readers, 2012 have leave us and let's welcome 2013 . I hope this year will be better than 2012 . I really love 2012 . There are some sad memories and there are some sweet memories . BUT I got more sweet memories from 2012 . Thanks to anyone who were with me in 2012 . So , what sweet things that happened in 2012 ?
 
1. I'm in 4 Cekal
Yes , 4 Cekal in JIGSS is a science class . Majority of the student in this class is the student who got 7 A's and 8 A's in PMR . Well , as I got 7 A's and 1 B in my PMR , I am afraid that I am not able to be in this class . But on that morning , when they were arranging our classes , I heard my name in 4 Cekal's namelist . I am so happy . I got to meet my friends *well , many of them are straight A liner*
 
2. I met my Ranju
Who is Ranju ? Her full name is Ranjeni but I love to call her Ranju ;) She is my classmate and we sat beside each other . She is very funny and my friends always claimed that we are couple . Hahaha . Well , I love her and yes , I know she love me too . We love to hate each other . She is my sit partner after Anis went for other school .
 
3. Date with SNSD
SNSD or Girl's Generation is not a group that I like but I follow their music ;) My cousin is a big fan of them and it was the first time SNSD come to Malaysia . She is excited that we went for Twin Tower Concert . Hahaha . I don't want to remind what I saw in that concert . Hahaha . I want to laugh . Well , I enjoyed them and my cousin look at me with unbelievable look . She even asked me , why are you cheering like that ? You are not their fans . Ouh well , once we entered a concert , we would want to follow and can't stop ;)
 
4. F1 Petronas Malaysia Grand Prix
Yes , it is the first time I went for F1 . I went there with Sahira , my bestiee and her siblings . Well , she asked me to bring a earphone but I only bring headphone and it's not helping at all . My ears are going to be deaf if I went there again . But I really enjoy this trip . We sat in front of the starting line . Well , actually the ticket cost much money . Hmm . Won't tell more about it .
 
5. Date with Teen Top
They are coming to Malaysia for the second time ! That was what I shouted when I found out that they are going to perform for Malaysia Youth Day . We . Sahira and I got to stand at the front , step on a small chair , take a beautiful picture of them , L.Joe noticed my banner , all of them noticed us since we are the one who suddenly become the tallest there . It's such a sweet memories ;)
 
6. Kuala Gandah Trip
This is my second trip with JIGSS . I went there with my beloved friends , Nena , Vivi and Faiza . So sad that Fieda were unable to join us . But seriously , I enjoyed this trip ! I got to meet elephant in front of me . Ouh , Faiza got to snap a picture with a snake . Hahaha . I just snapped a picture with a deer .
 
7. I am EXOTIC !
Okay , EXOTIC is a temporary fanclub name for a famous rookie group that debut in April 2012 , EXO . This group is divided into 2 sub-unit , EXO-K , which promote in Korea and EXO-M , which promote in China ;) There are 12 members is this group . I know them before their debut actually . That is when they are known as M1 and M2 :D  I watched their teaser and I really hate Kai that time coz he got the most teaser . The first member I like , Oh Sehun *wink* the second is Lu Han *wink* . Then  I watched their MV , What Is Love . I don't know why but I think the vocalist voice is just like Yoo Young Jin's voice that I ignore them at first . After their debut , on 30 April I downloaded their tittle track , MAMA . And ... I fall in love with Kai . Hahaha . That time my Sehun got the least part and I change my bias to Kai . Then ... around June , I listened to their song , Angel . Okay , that is the day I become an EXOTIC ;) Plus , I watched EXO-M Happy Camp and fall in love with Kris . Once again , change my bias in EXO-M . Mianhae Luhan . Since that , I really love EXO ! These 12 boys remind me of Super Junior . *but now my bias list have turned upside down*
 
8. I met my BB
Okay , BB actually stand for Big Bangang . Created by me ;) Actually the members in BB is my friends who I know since form 2 and form 4 . We started to be in a group since 13th July 2012 . Well , being in this group really make me happy . They made my day , they always be with me when I need them . Sincerely , I love them that I can't stop talking about them to other people . Hahaha . Lead by a crazy , childish but a responsible leader , helped by two other elders who always fight for maturity since their age difference is only one day . Then , the eldest among the youngest who always make us laugh a lot . Followed by a younger one that is cheerful and have weird aura . End with a small , short , penguin-like as the youngest . I am glad that I met them and thanked God they are here till today , always with me :)
 
9. Bicara Berirama 2012
Bicara Berirama or Choral Speaking was one of the performance for Malaysia's Independence Day . My school was selected and my school have to send 80 students for this performance . Well , my class was chosen and we went there half-hearted . Really hate it at first but then , we started to love it . It give a lot of memories to me and BB . We met so many friends . Well , actually this performance combined 26 schools in Kuala Lumpur and 1000+ students was chosen . Yosh , can't tell more . I miss this one ;)
 
10. My birthday
My 16th birthday . of course it was the memorable day ever ! Well , it was on Sunday and we still got practice for Bicara Berirama . In the morning , I received a lot of wishes especially my BB , my cousin and Iera . I got a lot of present too . Well , when I opened my FB , tadaa ! So many people wished me . Thanks a lot ! BB also held a birthday party for me and well , surprise party , I guess . That's why I love them a lot . Hahaha . My siblings wishes is the best ! They kissed me when I'm going to sleep and wished me . I love you , siblings !
 
11. The first time going for tuition
Yes . Me , NanazDaira never go for any tuition classes before . Only extra classes held by school . My tuition center is far away at Pasar Seni there and I went there with my BB , Nena and Fazrin . Well , the youngest one is the only one who went for tuition ;) And , I started to love it even though it is tiring .
 
This feeling is the first time . This love is the first time . The one that moves my heart is you . My love is for you . I just met you but I want to meet again . You are the only one who can be by my side . Even if I close my eyes I can find my one and only . I will protect you . Your day is my day , because of each other every day can be beautiful . Don’t bring up breaking up , such a hurtful words . Just stay by my side like this