Promise


Girl, I know it's hard , but don't ever lose hope . We'll get through this together , I promise ... Unfamilar pains always find us like habits and make us cry . I always feel sorry but the pathetic reality won't be eternal . Thank heaven that sent you to me and the heaven will protect us . Some day we will fly free just like your dream , we will . One step , then another . Although I will get tired , I won't give you up . I believe that it can't always be the same . More days are awaiting us . You don't need to cry any longer . I'll be there for you . I promise you , I can protect you because I love you . We so prepared to greet beautiful days and the small wish we made is getting near . Some day we will fly free . The days that your tears dreamed of will be so beautiful . Wipe your tears away , here comes the sunny days . No more worries cause the storm is gone . I'm here to stay . I know it's hard for you , the pain you're going through . And by looking at you girl , I feel the hurt you do . Through the good and the bad times , I'll be there . Keep your head up high , don't you ever feel despaired . I'm always here for you and you know this much is true . If you're ever feeling doubt , I'll come and comfort you . Let's live a life of hope and give a love unknown . And together we'll see what the future holds

Dedicated to : MoonlightJHN




As Good As It Gets



Wipe your tears away , here comes the sunny days . No more worries cause the storm is gone and I'm here to stay . I know it's hard for you , the pain you're going through . And by looking at you , I feel the hurt you do . Through the good and the bad times , I'll be there . Keep your head up high , don't you ever feel despaired . I'm always here for you and you know this much is true . If you're ever feeling doubt, I'll come and comfort you .

I keep wondering . Did I do wrong till she always want to keep all her account hidden ? Till she blocked me like I am a stalker . I am her friend and why only one or few people are allowed to know about her account ? Am I that terrible that she did it even though I knew it already ? I am not stupid . I am her friend for 4 years . I know her attitude really well because I love her even she didn't communicate a lot with me , playing around with me . Just tell me why . I keep this feeling for almost 2 years already . And I can't bear it because I am tired of thinking why she do that . I know some people just need space from the world and from who they are . She let others but not me and why is that ? I knew it , she knew it and I am hurt . I care about her but I didn't show it . People really don't know but I always protect her from stranger because she is special . I know that we never know what's on each other minds . A friend said that there's a pain she want to hide by spacing out from others and why I did I do not know about that ? Others knew it . Why it is not me to know ? I just don't understand . Sometimes , I saw her always willingly give others this one thing and whenever I want it too , I doubt to ask her . Because she give other person willingly , not like me . I feel like she doesn't want to give me . It's not that I am not trusting , not believing . I'm afraid that she's not there for me , I'm afraid she hates me . I'm afraid she's pretending in front of me . I do love her but I guess we are too awkward . I'm afraid of myself . I'm afraid  I did wrong . I'm afraid I am annoying . I'm afraid I will not have her trust . I'm afraid I'm not a good friend . Yeah , that's true that she wouldn't speak to me if she doesn't love me . She would've just ignored me when I talk to her . But sometimes I need her to understand me too

Voicemail



My once calm world is once again shaken . Love comes by looking at only you . Happiness comes by being with you . The pain of tears disappears and this is as good as it gets . Let’s do this the easy way , let’s be honest and trust each other . I’ll always be by your side . If we’re together , the world can’t get better than this . Tears well up at little things that weren’t a big deal before . My vision gets blurred and my heart is moved . A corner of the heart that I gave , used to be your spot but now it’s empty . But my pride pushes it out , saying that even the attachment that love brings is now lost . But I don’t think so , I’m still unchanged . All I want is you . The days without you become pale . Just like it never happened . So I start my story from the beginning . My usual dark self is now expressing my feelings . Over and over ... the sound of my heart won’t stop . Over and over ... this warm feeling won’t end .

Mask



I love you . I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore . I don’t even have the right to get close to you . Don’t love me . I don’t have the ease of being able to give you my heart . I live every day beyond my strength , each day is too much so I cry . I don’t have anything to give you but I'm missing you . I can’t even give you loving words but I’m missing you . I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine but I’m missing you . So I push you away because I’m a girl who has nothing but her own heart . I’m holding back , even though it hurts .  Even tears are a luxury for me . I don’t even have the right to look at you . Don’t look at me . I know that my heart is wherever you are . Close enough that our breaths can touch , always in that same place . I can’t hold your hand but I’m missing you . I’m worried I might just have my tears to hold , so I’m missing you . I can’t tell you to stay with me but I’m missing you . So it’s too much , but in the end … it’s because I’m a girl who has nothing but her own heart .