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Because I Miss You

The same sky like always , the same ordinary day . The only difference is that you're not here . I want to smile . Pretending to have forgotten everything , pretending it's nothing . Everyday I keep calling you alone because I miss you . And now I keep calling your name like a habit . I thought I sent you away without any regrets . No , I couldn't send you away yet . It seems like I'm going to die , what should I do ? I love you , I love you , I love you . Without even saying those words , I sent you away like this . I'm sorry, do you hear me ? Can you hear my late confession ? I love you  ♥ She would not able to confess because he never reply ...

Really I Didn't Know

The person I love so dearly has deserted me. And I am now weeping, holding to my wretched heart. The person I trust with his love has leave me indeed. Honestly, I really didn't know that person would leave me. Really, I didn't know. The sound of whistling that I heard, perhaps could it be him? Would he be back? I am finding myself, wretchedly waiting for him.

Don't Go

Your small wings fluttering as if they were waving . Seemed like you were telling me to follow after you . Your sad eyes looked at me as you told your story . It was that night that the wind blew you right into my heart . My mind keeps wandering, thinking of you . I'm the one that is completely captivated by you . It's like I'm mesmerized , forgot to breathe . If this is love I am willing to go anywhere with you . It's like we're dancing . When I'm with you I'm not scared of anything . Be it a second or eternity I know where I want to be . So baby , don't go . Take me anywhere with you and we'll walk together forever . When the world's ending I'll be right by your side . Please don't leave . When the morning comes , please don't just disappear . Please tell me that you will always be right here . It's as if I'm dreaming . Don't fly away , my beautiful butterfly .

XOXO

Our lips touching is an X or kiss . Arm around each other , O or hug . Do you know what I want to tell you? Day by day I write my heart to you . Wrote everything in this letter, it's true . But I can't seem to send it to you . "How have you been recently" is all I have to say. Why can't I tell you more , why am I this way? To be honest my heart's deeper, deeper than the sea. The words I really wanna say is "Be with me" . Even if this is a dream , here is where I wanna be . My heartbeat is speeding up . I've been waiting long enough in my dream . Just like that you appear in front of me . You're just like the moon, shining your light on me. Gently smiling, telling me you've fallen for me . 

Because

Even if I tell myself that right now its not like before, even if you forget me completely, even if I am just a person that just went by, tonight is just one night, just like before I lost you. My heart wants to find you again. Why is it lingering like this? I can't accept myself without you. My heart that wants you again. Why is it lingering like this? I can't actually realize that I don't have you. I don't except you to come back again. My heart is always trapped inside of yours. Please listen to my heart just once. Every day, every night I am missing you. Even if you aren't by my side, even if I can't see you now, in my heart, you're always the same.

Am I That Easy ?

I only want warm love . You only give me a cold hand . Throw away that arrogant pride . It keeps annoying and irritating me . I’m going completely crazy because of you . You act nice and I believe it all . I gave it all to you and I was betrayed again . It keeps annoying and irritating me . You put on that fake smile of yours and I feel like I’m going crazy . Stop bothering me and leave me alone . I’m not like before , just accepting everything . I’m not like a lighthouse only watching you like a fool . So spoiled , so conceited , so arrogant . You talk in dirty ways , you act immaturely . It keeps annoying and irritating me . I can’t understand it . What the hell do you want from me ? I can’t do this or that in the name of love . Someday you’ll experience the same . You who plays with love, you who sees love as easy . Am I so easy for you ? Is love is so easy for you ? Are the memories with me is so easy for you ? Is everything is so easy for you ? 

Will You Be Alright ?

Have you thought through the words you just spit out ? Do you know that you can’t turn things back easily ? I hate that you look sorry and sad . This might be our last time so please smile . Rather than me without you , you without me makes me more worried . Because you’re not good at doing things on your own . Will you be alright ? Even if I’m not by your side ? You get lonely so easily . Will you be alright ? Without a person to argue with . Without a person to joke around and laugh with . Think of it twice , think it through again . If you leave me , will you really be alright without me ? Because you’re clumsy at everything without me . Because the you that I know is like a child . Where are you going ? Why you wanna go ? In the end , you start to cry . What am I supposed to do now ? How can I let you go ? You are going to fall apart . Will you be alright ?

Only You

I thought it was over because it was exactly like the breakup formula my friends told me about . I thought if I endured through a couple days , I would forget someone like you . But the me inside is whispering that there won’t be another person I’ll love the way I loved you , that I’ll wander around here and there and go back to you , that this can’t be the end .  Why did you do that back then ? Was it because you were sick of me ? Or did I do something wrong ? They say men are like this . They say not to always be by their sides and not to treat them well all the time . But I like you , so what can I do ? I hate you for making me cry . I curse at you and resent you but like a lie , my heart was frozen cold but it melts down in front of you . Just like the seasons change from cold winter to spring . I’m melting because of you  , because I’m a fool , because I know nothing but you . That’s why I’m melting again  ♥

Heart Attack

Nothing has ever broken me like you did . No one I ever wanted more than you . Nobody else can make a girl so weak . Make her fall in love so deep . And every single memory I know reminds me that I’m all alone . If I could just get over you , I would . Don’t wanna love you anymore and missing you is like fighting a war . It’s a battle I’m losing and I’d give up if I could . If I could walk away as easily as you , I would . Thought I’ve seen enough to know it all . But not enough to know how it feels to fall . But the kind of pain you left me with , it never seems to heal and it never lets me go . Tell me how do I live with tainted love ? Tell me how can I feel no feelings ? Is there a way to leave it all behind ? If I could just get over you , I would . Don’t wanna love you anymore and missing you is like fighting a war . It’s a battle I’m losing and I’d give up if I could . Just tell me how to walk away from loving you and I would .

Yesterday

Dear Angels , I know you hate some points in me and even annoyed with it . Please ... tell me if you are . I feel like I'm invisible in your eyes . I feel like I want to drift away from all of you . Do you know why ? Because you can't point me the mistake I made and you can't tell me what's terrible about me . Thus , you choose to avoid me and join others . Like seriously , I am quite sad with the situation I am facing right now . I feel like I am useless even though we're supposed to lean on each other . I feel like I am stupid when I'm great at certain things . You guys never make me see myself in that way . Friendship is about to give and take . I can't just give in to all of you . I feel like it's me who always take it . Can't you take what I'm trying to give ? Just please ... I don't want anything else . All I want is to have all of you to share happiness and sadness with me . I don't want to see all the bias thing in our friend

Tears Airport

I remember years ago someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love . I did . You were strong and I was not . My illusion , my mistake . I was careless , I forgot . I did . And now when all is done, there is nothing to say . You have gone and so effortlessly , you have won . You can go ahead and tell them . Shout it from the roof tops , write it on the skyline . All we had is gone now . Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken . Tell them what I hoped would be impossible . Falling out of love is hard . Falling for betrayal is worst . Thinking all you need is there . Empty promises will wear . I know ... 

So Into U

I must have more tears than I thought . How could it be like this ? I let you go while smiling then . I’m not like other girls . I can’t be too cunning like them . I can’t meet anyone else because I can only think of you .You don’t have to listen to my nagging anymore . But you can’t become skinnier than you are now . Please make sure you eat . What should I do ? I keep missing you . I miss being in your arms already . I still like you , why did we separate ? I hope you feel the pain just like I do . You must be living like nothing’s happened . I can understand that . In a way , that suits you better . We used to spend the night talking . I tried to erase them , but it’s not working well . Foolishly , my tears keep on coming . I want to go find you . You’re starting to forget me already . So why can’t I do the same ? No , you’re the same as me . Please tell me that’s the situation . Come back to me please ... Just one day by my side ♥ It’s like you’re uninterested , it’s like

Dead At Heart

For real , what did you do during this year , love ? After letting you go , I felt like I was going to go crazy up until yesterday . In that long period of time there’s only you who left me . Having no other thoughts but of you, that’s how this year is passing by . The memories of that rainy day , when I went to go to find you . The clear sunshine that shined down on us when we walked together . None of these have left me . Inside my head , it makes me slowly die . All of my friends have become adults . But me ... still like an immature child . Having no other thoughts but of you , it’s just like being dead . I can’t understand our breakup . Even now I imagine our future . Even after our breakup ...  just like how my heart is always living by your side . It’s as if it’s dead . I stop the moments that I loved you . Even when we’re together , I won’t be able to remember you . If I just think that I wasn’t any of these , then it’s nothing . If I can’t forget you , it’s as if i’m dea

One Person's Story

So many stories come and go but only me who have one story about a person for years now . It’s a story about a person that only you don’t know and everyone else knows . If things are hard , I cry by myself . A sadness that isn’t even necessary because I hate being told to forget you . Words that haven’t even cooled down – I love you . Haven’t you ever been curious about my heart ? Loving someone to the point where you hate them . Do you know how that feels ? I’ve done nothing but love . But they keep telling me to not fall in love now . No one brings up stories about you in front of me . On good days , I laugh by myself but it’s awkward because I can’t laugh loudly because I hate it when they worry about me . When tears rise up , I sing that sad melody – probably about a thousand times . I love you . Are you trying to ignore me ? The more I love , the more afraid I get that you might get distant . So only my lies keep increasing . I don’t want to lose you .

MAMA ♥

I never talk about them here but this post is about them ;) This post is dedicated to EXO for their first anniversary . ♥ 08 . 04 . 2012  ♥ Thank you for your existance . I am forever yours . Hold my hand and never let go . All of us will go on forever . Someday we’ll widely show everyone our love . When that day comes I will never let go of your hands . I love you . These past 365 days has been nothing but bliss . ♥ Thank you  ♥ I know them when they are known as M1 and M2 . I still remember that ChanYeol's name was very famous that time and also Kai because he's TaeMin's bestfriend . The first member I like in EXO is Sehun for EXO-K and Luhan for EXO-M . I like them when I first saw their teaser ;) Okay , the first member I hate is Kai because he got so many teasers ! If I'm not mistaken , he got 11 teasers . But , my ultimate bias in EXO now is him , Kim Jong In aka Kai . Hahaha XD Next , the member I like after MAMA is released is

Inconvenient Truth

I keep thinking of you at night, I cannot sleep . Why did I turn on this love show ? The distance between us has increased . I was the servant of this love . Why did we fight ? Why were we like that ? Did you lose the sight ? We used to be in love . Why am I stuck in this moment ? The one I need is you, silly . You and I, don't cut our cord .  Don't deny our r²π . Come to me, everything is fine now . We will start everything over, over again .  Dear friends, it's weird that I know about that thing , I view it , I read it but you never want to open up to me . Well, just like someone says ... it shows how you trust me . Guess I'm not good enough to be your friend . It's really weird for me . I'm not going to touch about that thing in our conversation because I don't want to make things complicated . You always burst your feeling there and I know it . I want to comfort you there but I can't because we are not connected . When I want to text y

Promise

Girl, I know it's hard , but don't ever lose hope . We'll get through this together , I promise ... Unfamilar pains always find us like habits and make us cry . I always feel sorry but the pathetic reality won't be eternal . Thank heaven that sent you to me and the heaven will protect us . Some day we will fly free just like your dream , we will . One step , then another . Although I will get tired , I won't give you up . I believe that it can't always be the same . More days are awaiting us . You don't need to cry any longer . I'll be there for you . I promise you , I can protect you because I love you . We so prepared to greet beautiful days and the small wish we made is getting near . Some day we will fly free . The days that your tears dreamed of will be so beautiful . Wipe your tears away , here comes the sunny days . No more worries cause the storm is gone . I'm here to stay . I know it's hard for you , the pain you're going throug

As Good As It Gets

Wipe your tears away , here comes the sunny days . No more worries cause the storm is gone and I'm here to stay . I know it's hard for you , the pain you're going through . And by looking at you , I feel the hurt you do . Through the good and the bad times , I'll be there . Keep your head up high , don't you ever feel despaired . I'm always here for you and you know this much is true . If you're ever feeling doubt, I'll come and comfort you . I keep wondering . Did I do wrong till she always want to keep all her account hidden ? Till she blocked me like I am a stalker . I am her friend and why only one or few people are allowed to know about her account ? Am I that terrible that she did it even though I knew it already ? I am not stupid . I am her friend for 4 years . I know her attitude really well because I love her even she didn't communicate a lot with me , playing around with me . Just tell me why . I keep this feeling for almost 2 ye

Voicemail

My once calm world is once again shaken . Love comes by looking at only you . Happiness comes by being with you . The pain of tears disappears and this is as good as it gets . Let’s do this the easy way , let’s be honest and trust each other . I’ll always be by your side . If we’re together , the world can’t get better than this . Tears well up at little things that weren’t a big deal before . My vision gets blurred and my heart is moved . A corner of the heart that I gave , used to be your spot but now it’s empty . But my pride pushes it out , saying that even the attachment that love brings is now lost . But I don’t think so , I’m still unchanged . All I want is you . The days without you become pale . Just like it never happened . So I start my story from the beginning . My usual dark self is now expressing my feelings . Over and over ... the sound of my heart won’t stop . Over and over ... this warm feeling won’t end .

Mask

I love you . I’m sorry but I can’t do this anymore . I don’t even have the right to get close to you . Don’t love me . I don’t have the ease of being able to give you my heart . I live every day beyond my strength , each day is too much so I cry . I don’t have anything to give you but I'm missing you . I can’t even give you loving words but I’m missing you . I can’t even boldly wish for you to be mine but I’m missing you . So I push you away because I’m a girl who has nothing but her own heart . I’m holding back , even though it hurts .  Even tears are a luxury for me . I don’t even have the right to look at you . Don’t look at me . I know that my heart is wherever you are . Close enough that our breaths can touch , always in that same place . I can’t hold your hand but I’m missing you . I’m worried I might just have my tears to hold , so I’m missing you . I can’t tell you to stay with me but I’m missing you . So it’s too much , but in the end … it’s because I’m a girl who h

A Goodbye

Now all my hopes and all my dreams are suddenly reality . You've opened up my heart to feel a kind of love that's truly real . A guiding light that'll never fade . There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade . For the love you give , it won't let go . I hope you'll always know . This post is dedicated to my beloved teacher , Mrs Kalaichelvi . She is my Geography teacher since form 1 till form 3 . Then , she is my English teacher since form 4 until now . Tomorrow is her retirement day . I am quite sad because she had been with me since I am form 1 . The only teacher who teach me 5 years in a row . We will perform for her tomorrow and I hope my classmates did not cry . If not , I will cry too . Teacher also said that she didn't want us to cry because she will also cry . It's quite sad . She's like our mother already . She always defend us from other teacher . She understand us and she is so cool !  Dear Mrs Kalai , thanks a lot f

Maybe In Love

I don’t remember the look you used to give me or your warm and cozy embrace . From some point , we didn’t try to get to know each other or even want to get to know each other . Our changing images were so cold that it couldn’t even be touched . Inside the tiring indifference , I couldn’t do anything and I hated myself more for that . You didn’t look at my eyes , you didn’t read my heart , you turned away from my sadness . I love you – were these words not enough ? I didn’t know at first , I thought you were just busy . Your calls and dates with you grew less . You’ll come if I wait , I should understand . But the more I did so , the further you got . I am standing here in the same place but you grow faint and I can’t see you . I don’t even know my way back . So come here , hurry and save me . On the day where everything ended in a quick moment , after snapping out of it , I realized I was really alone . Are you really crying like a fool ? Do you think it’s over ? I really can’t

I Need You

Pass by me , I’ll pretend not to have seen those eyes . I’ll just say that I didn’t see you . Please just ignore me before my shaking heart collapses . This coincidence happened one , two , three times . Now it feels like you are my destiny . For the last time , just one , two , three more times , I keep missing you . You are so precious to me . Why is it you who happened to take everything ? Everything that I ever wanted . Tears fall when I see you . Why did you touch my heart ? I can’t have you but I want you . My heart hurts when I see you who can never be mine . In my dreams , I am holding you and I am saying these nonsense words , I love you . Tears fall drop by drop but I try to brush off my heart . Your embrace makes me breath . Just come into my arms and stay still . I tried convincing myself and tried to avoid you . But now I became a coward girl and I want you . My heart ... it’s the place that you should be . Which decision is the right one ? I need you , want you back

Illa Illa ♥

I love you even as the time goes by . I love you even if the world changes . I'm always glad you stay by my side and protect me . Thank you . Whenever I open my eyes in the morning , I think of you . Starting with a bright smile even after a tiresome day again , I think of you . I'm the happiest person alive . Now I'm not sad . Now I don't cry . I give you my all . I love you . Although I can't stop your tears from falling I'll shed my tears along with you . Let's not be hurt again . Let's not cry again . I give my all to you . Even if we fall a thousand times , even if we collapse again ... We'll get up again . Even if the wind and rain beat down on us , even if darkness falls ... I'll protect you . Because of you , I live another day . Because of you , my heart continues to beat . I shout to the skies that you're the one and only person that I love . I love you  ♥ Who are they ? The angels who always care for her , love her and n

Everlasting Sunset

All day you linger in my eyes . Because of you , I can’t do anything . You even appear in my dreams , shaking me up . When I wake up, I search around looking for you . When I see nice clothes when walking down the street , I keep thinking of you . When I’m eating tasty foods , I think of you . When I look at couples on the street , I keep thinking of you . When it’s the free weekend , I think of you . On a good sunny day like today , a date with you . How sweet would that be ? You don’t know that I’m like this . I can’t move closer because you are so much more than me . However , even if you don’t know ... regardless of the fact that I can’t express my heart , I can’t stop myself . Everything looks different because of you . Even the gentle breeze excites me . You don’t know about this love that I started on my own . But because I long for it so much , I believe that it will come true . It's not that I can't accept the fact that I can't have it . I tried to avoid i

Love Disease

Even though you are not here , I still remember all your words . I live my life as you are exist , whispering all the words to me . When will you send me your letter ? I will wait till your love confession comes . My heart breaks when I remember all the love we build together . Should I just forget because you are already gone ? Even though you leave without your will but my heart still feel that you're so cruel when you leave me with our love note . When will I accept your absence ? I will burn and destroy all the memories . Dear , I beg you to leave me with the memories . Just go to where you belong . There will be something better for you and me . Just go ... Maybe this is my fate . Adoring without being loved . It's okay for me as long as you are happy with your life . I have keep that feeling for you for a long time . Waiting for you to embrace me . It's okay for me . Loving you is a happiness for me . I want you to know that I am here , waiting for you . E

Memories

  We were in love , weren’t we ? All those days we spent together . We shared our pain , didn’t we ? Even when we didn’t know what was wrong . Where are you now ? Don’t you hear my voice ? My aching heart searches for you . It calls out for you , it’s going crazy . My heart , my tears . Again the memory of you drop by drop fall onto my chest . I cry and cry and these memories can’t be erased . Today my empty heart is drenched again . We liked each other , didn’t we ? I used to make you laugh just by smiling . We cried together , didn’t we ? You would hurt too when you saw my tears . Where are you now ? Don’t you see how exhausted I am ? My aching heart searches for you . It calls out for you , it’s going crazy . Won’t you come back to me?  Every day I call out your name . As I wait and exhausted , I wander and look for you . My love , my tears , my memories is with you .   Annyeong readers, 2012 have leave us and let's welcome 2013 . I hope this year will be better than 20