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Butterfly

When I’m yawning and feeling restless, only you seem like spring out of this whole world, girl. When you look at me, you’re like a playful cat chasing a small butterfly. The soft sunshine shines down on you right now. You’re my butterfly with a light movement. Come and fly over to me. You’re my butterfly. Every day you bring a new spring, a happiness to me. Hey girl, will you follow me? To the white clouds over there? Hey girl, when I follow you, I start to smile. You came to me like spring. Worried that it’ll end when you open your eyes? Girl, don’t worry. Are these is the feelings of love? Don’t doubt, don’t worry, don’t ask. If I’m with you, whenever, wherever, it is like a field filled with flowers in a dream. You’re my butterfly. Follow the soft scent, the flowers and come to me. You’re my butterfly. I’ll give all the sweetness of the world to you. Dedicated to : Precious BB  ♥

Hard But Easy

Every time I thought of you, I cursed at you. That way, I felt a little better. I erased everything that might remind me of you. But still, there are too many memories. How can I call you? How can I call you after suddenly thinking about you? I’m still forgetting you. My heart is still in pain. I’m still hating you, I’m still forgiving you. Whatever you say, love is over. I’m going back to the days where I didn’t know you. I won’t say anything. I won’t show that I’m glad to talk to you. I’m trying to stop my heartbeat that I can hear with my ears so I’m not even breathing. I’m in enough pain. I’m not in pain because I miss you. Tears are falling because I just feel empty. I hope I won’t ever hear your voice again. 

Heartbeat

Even though we argued a little yesterday, today we are laughing and embracing each other. Let’s make a promise. You are my best friend. Even if your worry may seem trivial, don’t hold it in but share it with each other. Promise me one more time. When you laugh, I’m happy too. When you’re sad, my eyes tear up as well. I’ll always be your strength and your best friend. If you find a good movie, a song or a guy, make sure to share it with each other. Let’s make a promise together. Let’s not be stingy and buy meals for each other. Let’s make a promise with our finger. For me, when you’re not here I really feel lonely. For me, when you’re sick I can’t sleep. I am worry about you. Have faith and let's hold on together. No matter what I won’t be afraid. The word friendship may sound awkward but I think that word was created to describe us. There is only one of you in this world, my friend. You’re my joy and my soul. I’ll continue to treasure our importance. I love you. You’re my life

Madly

I tried spending a day without you but the hellish pain traps me. I need to love without you but I don’t even have the smallest space. I cry out loud but you won’t hear and again today, I only say your name. I madly miss you, I miss you to death. I try to push you out but it’s only you in my mind. I tell myself that I’m over you but it’s only you in my mind. I keep missing you, I only miss you. I try to comfort myself, telling myself to stop but I can only forget you because my heart still remembers you. I throw a fit but I keep thinking of you. The longing words that come up to my throat... I love you. I madly love you, I love you to death. Though I curse, though I get angry, it’s only you in my mind. I only love you, I only love you to death because of this foolish love. It's only you because I only love you.

Destiny

This post is dedicated to the sweetest buddy I ever have in my life, Sahira bt Mohd Tamam. My girl, my angel. Born on 8th November 1996, she is my baby dongsaeng. We know each other when we're in standard 4. She was a new student and the silent type so we are not close to each other yet. We're classmate for three consecutive years and we started to be best friend when we're in standard 6. Want to know when? It was when we know that we have a crush on the same person. How funny. Every girls in the school was hating me but she was the one who always be with me, without any doubt, without any hatred. It's funny if I write some of primary school memory so I better stop. Hehehe.  Then, we entered the same high school even though we're in different class. I'm grateful that even we're in different session but we managed to contact each other and remain best friend till now. Starting from form 1 also, we started to exchanged birthday present and I still kee

First Love

I was so young back then, I could only see you. I didn’t need anything if we could be together. We fought a lot about things that weren’t a big deal. When I think about it, only laughter comes out. Sometimes I’m so curious about you, I could die. But there’s nothing I can do about it now. Sometimes I think of you and I miss you so much. But I will just bury it in as beautiful memories. Hello? Just saying that one word is hard so I can’t even call you. I’m sorry that I didn’t treat you better, I’m so sad over you. I can’t be held by you anymore, even in my dreams. Don’t ever hurt again and be happy, I will pray for you. The past memories flicker before me, I can’t do anything. Why am I such a fool? First love, my unforgettable love. Why does it hurt so much? Am I the only one who remembers? First love, I call out to you with this desperate voice until it can reach you, until always. I close my eyes in this moment, tears flow in this moment. Why am I so pathetic, still not over you?

Bad Person

I avoided my close friends and only looked at you. I learned how to cook for the first time and only waited for you. You are so mean, you are so bad. I did everything that you wanted. All day I cried then laughed like a crazy person. Did you want me to be like this as well? How can it be so painful when there are no scars? How can it hurt so much as if I’ve caught a nasty cold? You are so mean, you are so bad. Was my innocent love that fun to you? All day I curse at you and hate you, as if I forgot you. But the more I do so, the more tears flow. Don’t you ever love again because you’re such a bad person. For the price of leaving me, don’t ever be happy. I don’t like you. Even if you come back to me, I don’t want you. You are such a mean person, you are such a bad man. Even the sweet whispers of love, I didn’t know that they were all lies. I was still young so I believed everything you told me and I regret that so much. You are so mean, you are so bad. Are tears the last part of lo

Just Once

Can I love you? I have something I want to say but my lips are heavy. My heart has words that it couldn't say even once. You're getting farther away when I still have words I couldn't say. Like a fool, I swallowed those words into my heart. I tell you that it's okay, that I'm here. I get bruised by embracing you in my heart. Even though it's hurt, I only want you. Do you know about my clumsy love? I can't say anything as I see you turn away. So, all my love I will just place it inside my heart. Please love me just once. Can I crazily call out your name just once? Because of my heart, I want to go closer to your side. In order to tell you, I love you, the person I miss.

The Way To Break Up

Even if it hurts, pretend that it's nothing. Even if tears fall, know how to hide them. Place it in one side of the heart and know how to smile as if there's nothing wrong. That's the way to break up. My heart is growing dark like this again. The many lingering regrets are pulling down. It'll probably be erased again, it'll probably become distant. We will probably forget each other. My meaningless day will probably pass by. Our unique love will probably be like it never exist. Even if I want to see you, I probably won't be able to see you again. Even if it hurts, I should bear it. I will probably get used to spending the days without you. Tomorrow will probably be a little more comfortable. I will probably forget you little by little. Maybe sometimes I will think of you and probably only good memories will come up. I need to forget you. Only my welled up tears remember you and there so many traces of happiness. To me, love is such a painful thing. Even if

Regret

It was a sunny day when our love started. We were so happy, I loved you so much. Now it’s over, everything is over. My heart hurts so much. I don’t know what to do. I still can’t get over you. You’ll regret this. I will forget you. Even if I’m like a fool, I will forget you. I get determined and promise myself even though I can’t forget our love, even though I will think of you again. I cry and cry and cry like this because it’s so frustrating. I cry and cry and cry again because I’m so angry. What do I do? Don’t go like that, I will die. What do I do? What do I do? What do I do? I will smile, I will forget you, I will live well for all to see. I’m such a fool. I’m a fool because I will draw you out in tears because I can’t forget you. 

Baby Don't Cry

Forgive me because I'm not able to company you to sleep. Please forget me and don't ever meet me again. You're the greatest woman ever in my heart. You're a strong woman thus I beg you to forget me. Please don't cry anymore. I think it's enough till here. Maybe one day you will find your true love. Please forget me quickly. Don't ever bring up the past. I'm afraid that I'm not be able to love you. Dedicated to : Someone named Camelia ;)

1-4-3 (I Love You)

I'm watching cause you got me patiently waiting . I think you are amazing . It's okay , you worth the wait but I just can take no more .I'm dreaming of you every night and I'm praying . Will you hold me tight and just wrap those arms around me ? I really wanna feel you in my soul . I'm talking . Do you hear a word that I'm saying ? I'm so tired of playing these games with you . I'm so confused . So will you be my love ? I'm losing my mind while your over there choosing . I don't wanna ruin this thing we got . Like it or not , who's love are you wanting to be ? Everytime you look into my eyes I  can feel that you just wanna say . Three little words that's not impossible but then you start walking away . I can't help it so I'm asking the question , I guess there's no other way for you to just tell me right now . So maybe I should say it out loud . I can't help it . When I want it , I gotta get it and it's you that I

Gone

In that space where memories linger still as warm as on my fingertips , you are here . Your scent and your face are here . Please look at me so that I can feel you like this . Struggling to catch your expressions , struggling to catch your smile . You're the one who I struggled to understand . When it felt too good walking in the rain with you , you’re not here . How am I supposed to erase you alone and live my life ? In those moments where we once walked together , in the places where the memories and lingering attachments were made ... I’m standing there because I miss you so much . Your name which I was barely allowed to speak can't be erased . Your name that only used by me is asleep right here . In those moments where we could've walked together , I'm holding onto myself alone . In the places where our future and my hopes stopped , I’m standing there but you're gone .