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Because of You

I can’t remember how many years it has been since we parted away. But I cry every time when I think about you. Why I’m so eager to see you today? The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up. I regret giving you my love. I regret getting attached to you. I regret holding you back. Why do I have to face the pain alone? I tried to be your only girl and did you ever understood my heart? Now it became the compass of broken love. Tears are flowing down and it soaks my dry lips. What should I do? Now I can’t erase you out of my mind. I cried a lot because of you. I laughed a lot because of you. I believed in love because of you. I’ve lost everything because of you. I’m speechless. It's suffocating and lonely. The world without you has chewed out my heart. You stomped on my dignity, torn apart my heart. So why did you leave me behind? It also rained on that day. You’ve stared at me wordlessly. You’ve stared at nothing else but me. Those trembling gazes and the awkwardly force

Why Did I Fall In Love With You

Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed, I still thought you were right here. But you’ve already chosen a different path. Why couldn’t I call out to you at all? Every day and night growing emotions and words overflow. But I realized that they’d never reach you again. Since that day I first met you, I felt like I already knew you. You and I melded into each other so smoothly. It was natural for me to be where you were. The two of us grew up together but you’ve already chosen a different path. Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed, I still thought you were right here. Now we can’t turn back. Why did I end up falling for you? How we were before... we can’t return to it anymore. Why didn’t I hold on to your hand? No matter how much time has passed, you should’ve always been by my side. But still, even if I’m nowhere near you anymore... I’m praying that you may be happy for eternity. No matter how much that would make me lon

Sakura

Every now and then, I remember when we would ride this train together and thought these precious moments would last forever. Every now and then I look back again. Every time I close my eyes and the memories are with me but you're not here with me. I know that is time for me to set free but there is still an emptiness inside me. My life without you, it's just hard for me to imagine. I see those cherry blossoms. Although you're far away, I can hear you, I can feel you next to me. Getting over you is what I've tried to do. Can't get you out of my mind. Why can't we be together now the way we used to be? Talkin' to my heart, trying to explain. Our love has faded away just like the seasons go by and now it's here again. The leaves will flutter to the ground. It reminds me of the days when you were here to hold my hand. And the promises we've made along still keeps me hanging on. Hold me now just like other lovers.

Beautiful

I hung my head low, avoiding the sky; hiding. The nights were endless in my dark heart. I couldn’t spread my wings in this world that was like a small birdcage. With struggling movements, I’ll sing for you, who will come to me some day. So my dreams that spread its wings can shine even more in the blue sky. So my coldly shut heart can beat again. I’ll go up in the sky to the stars. Outside the door, I always had anxious scars. I can only fly if I endured through the pain. Those hurtful words deeply cut into my heart. It's hurt but I bit my tongue and endured it. I know I’m gonna heal and I’m always looking up. Even if it’s dark, I’m gonna find the light. I will smile, I will keep smiling. I’m a fighter, I won’t ever give up. I’ll keep flying, fly, fly again. My dreams wrap around the future me. I’ll just be me. I can fly higher without fear, even when I’m trapped in darkness. Any kind of scar is beautiful to me. I’m just happy, I’m happy to be myself.

Over The Destiny

Just by looking at your hair that blew in the wind, I had nothing more to wish for. You came to me like a dream and only left behind a goodbye. I’m just thankful that I met you in my life. Back then, all the countless nights when I met you, I think of them with open arms. Please appear before me over the destiny. Come back to me, the fool who couldn’t tell you about my longing. Please appear before me over the destiny. So I can fill myself with you, who might get forgotten. Come back to me like the warm spring sunlight, like it’s the first time.

A Person Like Me

This road that I used to walk on, why does it feel so lonely? I sent you away because there seemed to be no end. But I still can’t forget you. I erased someone like you but why do I miss you so much? Eventhough I try to erase you and hold back my tears again, there's a person who keep coming back again and again. I erased all memories but why do I feel so sad? I try to hold back again. I try to erase you but that person will come back again . Am I not the one? Is there someone else for you? When you said that you loved me, it’s a lie right?  You only leave scars deep in my heart. Eventhough I know it well, please don’t let go of me. I can’t do anything about being a tiring person. I only become obsessed like this. I seem like a fool like this. Really like a fool. You know it too. I won’t be able to see you. It’s probably the end. Eventhough I know it well, please understand me. It’s a lie, right? There’s probably someone for you. Eventhough I know it well, please don’t let go

There Is A Place

I reminisce my first sight of you. I remember back those mottled times . I finally stopped wandering aimlessly when you're by my side . I reminisce those familiar streets, remembering the beautiful days that flew away. There is a place only we know  ♥

Girls Girls Girls

It has been a long time since I updated my blog, rite? Well, first of all let's welcome 2015. May this year bring us more happiness, more experience, more people to be friend with and not to forget, more money. Hehehe . Since it's already 2015, it makes me realize that I'm getting older . But then, I realize again that other people are getting older too. And when did I realize it? It was when I was reading some list on Twitter. Want to know about the list? It's a list of KPOP Idol Who Will Turn 30 on 2015 . Looking at the list, it made my jaw dropped. Why? Because I can't believe those cute crazy guys are going to be 30 this year. It feels like yesterday I was fangirling with my friends about wanting to marry them because they're still young. Looks like I'm wrong. I will be 19 this year and yet they are going to be 30. I don't even finish my study yet. Oh my gosh *facepalm* .  And guess what? It made me reminisce back all the memories of being a