Heart Attack

Nothing has ever broken me like you did . No one I ever wanted more than you . Nobody else can make a girl so weak . Make her fall in love so deep . And every single memory I know reminds me that I’m all alone . If I could just get over you , I would . Don’t wanna love you anymore and missing you is like fighting a war . It’s a battle I’m losing and I’d give up if I could . If I could walk away as easily as you , I would . Thought I’ve seen enough to know it all . But not enough to know how it feels to fall . But the kind of pain you left me with , it never seems to heal and it never lets me go . Tell me how do I live with tainted love ? Tell me how can I feel no feelings ? Is there a way to leave it all behind ? If I could just get over you , I would . Don’t wanna love you anymore and missing you is like fighting a war . It’s a battle I’m losing and I’d give up if I could . Just tell me how to walk away from loving you and I would .


Dear Angels , I know you hate some points in me and even annoyed with it . Please ... tell me if you are . I feel like I'm invisible in your eyes . I feel like I want to drift away from all of you . Do you know why ? Because you can't point me the mistake I made and you can't tell me what's terrible about me . Thus , you choose to avoid me and join others . Like seriously , I am quite sad with the situation I am facing right now . I feel like I am useless even though we're supposed to lean on each other . I feel like I am stupid when I'm great at certain things . You guys never make me see myself in that way . Friendship is about to give and take . I can't just give in to all of you . I feel like it's me who always take it . Can't you take what I'm trying to give ? Just please ... I don't want anything else . All I want is to have all of you to share happiness and sadness with me . I don't want to see all the bias thing in our friendship . What others give is what you have to take . What others take , you have to accept it . Directly say it is not the proper way in our friendship . But I hope we can advice each other in a good way so that no heart will get hurt . Don't deny , my angels . All of you are already become my world , how can I never know what you guys are thinking ? If one of us is sad , we can always cheer each other . But please ... please appreciate . Don't ever say that words is just a word ! Words or pray from a friend come with bless , my dear angel . So please appreciate because we're not able to help you in physical way . Problem only can be settled by your own . Each one of us can only guide and support . And ... some of us are lacking in something . I hope , we can fix it together and not make others jealous with what we have . Don't ignore one another with the thing you have . Dear Angels , no more love story to be told . You guys are innocent and maybe not able to understand the feeling . I understand I'll fix it . I just hope we can fix it together as a family . Please ... I hope we can fix it before I fix it on my own . I did this because I love every single of you . I can cry because all of you . You guys are the definition of happiness to me 

Tears Airport

I remember years ago someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love . I did . You were strong and I was not . My illusion , my mistake . I was careless , I forgot . I did . And now when all is done, there is nothing to say . You have gone and so effortlessly , you have won . You can go ahead and tell them . Shout it from the roof tops , write it on the skyline . All we had is gone now . Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken . Tell them what I hoped would be impossible . Falling out of love is hard . Falling for betrayal is worst . Thinking all you need is there . Empty promises will wear . I know ...