Ariadne

It's a miracle that we met under this sky. I'm coming to see you on the other side of the rainbow we saw. I'm going to keep singing till this voice reaches you. Always, anytime, I'm thinking of you. That familiar scenery feels different than usual. Even the city lights somehow seem very gentle. It's because tomorrow we will surely be laughing together, side by side. I feel like I can't do anything now. In the sky we saw, I remember your smiling face. I'm clumsily believing... that's all I can do. Like this sky, I always want to feel you closer beside me. I'm going to keep singing till this voice reaches you. Let's walk together as our door opens. Since that day when I met you, I imagine my story. I'm going to build a bridge to you, like a rainbow after the rain. It's a miracle that we met under this sky. I'm coming to see you on the other side of the rainbow we saw. I'm going to keep singing till this voice reaches yo...

Among the flower petals that fell, it was a miracle that I got to meet you. It was like a dream. We loved. We fought. We overcame so many obstacles together. If I am reborn, I want to bloom like a flower next to you.   Will the sun above me be there forever? Will I be able to always protect your tears, your smiles, and your anger? If everything will eventually disappear, I should appreciate you more.  The miracle of that day; of that moment; of that place, will create another path for us.  When we love, we become stronger; when we believe, we can overcome.  The things you left behind still remain in my heart without losing their meaning. I think I’m really lucky that I got to meet you; that I am able to smile again.  “Thank you.” With these feelings, I continue forward. Let’s accept the fact that everything in this world withers away like flower petals. You gave me the treasure called “today."  That’s why I’ll live to the fullest and bloom lik...

I've been looking for someone to be there. When life is so unfair and hard to breathe. You always stand by my side and hold my hand. Your smile is the only light until we see the sun. Starting over like we've just begun. There are so many ways to do it right. Turn around and see what we've left behind. It's never ever too late.  I've been searching for something special. I spent too much time traveling around. Now I know all I need is someone like you. Everyday you make me happy with every word you say. Sit down and let me draw your smile. You look beautiful in colors so bright. Your brown eyes make my heart beats fast. I've never felt this way before. Forget your tears of past. Do not regret, do not chase. Raise your head up high cause stars are shining bright. There is nothing like you and I together. We can make this dream a reality. Together we can make a brand new day. If we just believe that we can fly, someday we can touch the sky.  We can ma...

It's better when we are together. From the day we met you are my treasure. It's hard to hang up 'cause I dig your phone call. You can count on me. I'm so into you. I won't let you down. My heart belongs to you till the end of time. Telling all my friends he's not like others. I've found my one, my only lover. Nothing can stop me now. I'm crazy crazy crazy crazy for you. Come close to me and close your eyes. Don't fly away. Boy, hold me tight. I need you in my world.  You're my everything. I wanna see your smile everyday. All my nights and all my days. Every minute every hour. Baby, I love you more. Catch a little kiss from the sky. Just wanna have you by my side. We will never ever be apart I'm sure. And I will, and you will write a perfect love story. When you talk to me the whole world stops and I... baby, I really love you more.  Waiting for love like this forever. Sharing the moment makes me wonder. Do I deserve this flower o...

Hello, everyone! Lol this is a bit awkward after not writing here for so long. It just hard to pour what's in my mind nowadays to a writing because... I don't know. Maybe it is the effect of growing up. I tend to keep things to my heart or maybe posted it on twitter only for it to be deleted later. But well, today I'm going to write something useful. I don't know if people want to read because this blog is not that well known and maybe appear if anyone need something from my page (?)  So let's begin. What I want to write in this post is actually something I rant about the other day. Maybe because I am frustated lol. I just want to share some plotting technique which I used since I started writing when I was 14. Many people find it difficult to plot their story when they already have their main idea, their main character... well, basically how the story goes. But the story must have a perfect storyline to make it interesting. Hence it is important to know the te...

So I came across a topic with my friends about girls wearing and not wearing hijab. Since we both have different opinions, it makes me reflect what is the wrong in my belief. I would likely to say this first, I don't have anything against girls who are not wearing hijab. Just like my friend said, it's up to that girl if she wants to wear it or not. Yeah, something like it's between her and Allah.  But years ago I came across a talk where the panel said many of the girls are waiting for the right time to wear the hijab or in malay words we call it 'sampai seru'. And the panel was like ... when is that? The 'seru' or the instruction to wear hijab is written long time ago in the al-Quran so what is the reason for you to wait actually? And I kind of thinking for a few seconds. He's right. It's in the al-Quran but many people take it so lightly because of the way our world works now.  It's the reality but that also doesn't give us poi...

It’s 11:11. When there’s not much time left to the day, when we used to make wishes and laugh. Everything reminds me of you. The wind is as cold as the edge of your heart. When I open the window, you blow in. When this time passes will this break up be over? Will I forget you? Everything finds its place and leaves. You took all of me and left. But like the two hands of the clock in my heart. I keep lingering in the same place. In the calendar, the date that we planned out long ago, if you forgot about it all I guess I have to erase it. After a while it won’t be a big deal. Like a strange flower that blooms between seasons, like the morning star that hangs between days. All of this, some day, will pass. Everything finds its place and returns. If I finally smile as if nothing happened, calling out your name won’t hurt as much as it does now. I believe I’ll be over you.

And what if I never kiss your lips again or feel the touch of your sweet embrace? How would I ever go on? Without you there´s no place to belong. Well, someday love is gonna lead you back to me. But ´till it does I´ll have an empty heart. So I´ll just have to believe that somewhere out there you´re thinking of me. You´d think I´d be strong enough to make it through and rise above when the rain falls down. But it´s so hard to be strong when you´ve been missin´ somebody so long. It´s just a matter of time I´m sure. But time takes time and I can´t hold on. So won´t you try as hard as you can to put my broken heart together again? Until the day I let you go,  until we say our next hello. It´s not good-bye. ´Til I see you again I´ll be right here rememberin´ when. And if time is on our side, there'll be no tears to cry. On down the road, there is one thing I can´t deny. It´s not good-bye .

I can’t remember how many years it has been since we parted away. But I cry every time when I think about you. Why I’m so eager to see you today? The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up. I regret giving you my love. I regret getting attached to you. I regret holding you back. Why do I have to face the pain alone? I tried to be your only girl and did you ever understood my heart? Now it became the compass of broken love. Tears are flowing down and it soaks my dry lips. What should I do? Now I can’t erase you out of my mind. I cried a lot because of you. I laughed a lot because of you. I believed in love because of you. I’ve lost everything because of you. I’m speechless. It's suffocating and lonely. The world without you has chewed out my heart. You stomped on my dignity, torn apart my heart. So why did you leave me behind? It also rained on that day. You’ve stared at me wordlessly. You’ve stared at nothing else but me. Those trembling gazes and the awkwardly force...

Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed, I still thought you were right here. But you’ve already chosen a different path. Why couldn’t I call out to you at all? Every day and night growing emotions and words overflow. But I realized that they’d never reach you again. Since that day I first met you, I felt like I already knew you. You and I melded into each other so smoothly. It was natural for me to be where you were. The two of us grew up together but you’ve already chosen a different path. Why did I end up falling for you? No matter how much time has passed, I still thought you were right here. Now we can’t turn back. Why did I end up falling for you? How we were before... we can’t return to it anymore. Why didn’t I hold on to your hand? No matter how much time has passed, you should’ve always been by my side. But still, even if I’m nowhere near you anymore... I’m praying that you may be happy for eternity. No matter how much that would make me lon...

Every now and then, I remember when we would ride this train together and thought these precious moments would last forever. Every now and then I look back again. Every time I close my eyes and the memories are with me but you're not here with me. I know that is time for me to set free but there is still an emptiness inside me. My life without you, it's just hard for me to imagine. I see those cherry blossoms. Although you're far away, I can hear you, I can feel you next to me. Getting over you is what I've tried to do. Can't get you out of my mind. Why can't we be together now the way we used to be? Talkin' to my heart, trying to explain. Our love has faded away just like the seasons go by and now it's here again. The leaves will flutter to the ground. It reminds me of the days when you were here to hold my hand. And the promises we've made along still keeps me hanging on. Hold me now just like other lovers.

I hung my head low, avoiding the sky; hiding. The nights were endless in my dark heart. I couldn’t spread my wings in this world that was like a small birdcage. With struggling movements, I’ll sing for you, who will come to me some day. So my dreams that spread its wings can shine even more in the blue sky. So my coldly shut heart can beat again. I’ll go up in the sky to the stars. Outside the door, I always had anxious scars. I can only fly if I endured through the pain. Those hurtful words deeply cut into my heart. It's hurt but I bit my tongue and endured it. I know I’m gonna heal and I’m always looking up. Even if it’s dark, I’m gonna find the light. I will smile, I will keep smiling. I’m a fighter, I won’t ever give up. I’ll keep flying, fly, fly again. My dreams wrap around the future me. I’ll just be me. I can fly higher without fear, even when I’m trapped in darkness. Any kind of scar is beautiful to me. I’m just happy, I’m happy to be myself.

Just by looking at your hair that blew in the wind, I had nothing more to wish for. You came to me like a dream and only left behind a goodbye. I’m just thankful that I met you in my life. Back then, all the countless nights when I met you, I think of them with open arms. Please appear before me over the destiny. Come back to me, the fool who couldn’t tell you about my longing. Please appear before me over the destiny. So I can fill myself with you, who might get forgotten. Come back to me like the warm spring sunlight, like it’s the first time.

This road that I used to walk on, why does it feel so lonely? I sent you away because there seemed to be no end. But I still can’t forget you. I erased someone like you but why do I miss you so much? Eventhough I try to erase you and hold back my tears again, there's a person who keep coming back again and again. I erased all memories but why do I feel so sad? I try to hold back again. I try to erase you but that person will come back again . Am I not the one? Is there someone else for you? When you said that you loved me, it’s a lie right?  You only leave scars deep in my heart. Eventhough I know it well, please don’t let go of me. I can’t do anything about being a tiring person. I only become obsessed like this. I seem like a fool like this. Really like a fool. You know it too. I won’t be able to see you. It’s probably the end. Eventhough I know it well, please understand me. It’s a lie, right? There’s probably someone for you. Eventhough I know it well, please don’t let go ...

I reminisce my first sight of you. I remember back those mottled times . I finally stopped wandering aimlessly when you're by my side . I reminisce those familiar streets, remembering the beautiful days that flew away. There is a place only we know  ♥

It has been a long time since I updated my blog, rite? Well, first of all let's welcome 2015. May this year bring us more happiness, more experience, more people to be friend with and not to forget, more money. Hehehe . Since it's already 2015, it makes me realize that I'm getting older . But then, I realize again that other people are getting older too. And when did I realize it? It was when I was reading some list on Twitter. Want to know about the list? It's a list of KPOP Idol Who Will Turn 30 on 2015 . Looking at the list, it made my jaw dropped. Why? Because I can't believe those cute crazy guys are going to be 30 this year. It feels like yesterday I was fangirling with my friends about wanting to marry them because they're still young. Looks like I'm wrong. I will be 19 this year and yet they are going to be 30. I don't even finish my study yet. Oh my gosh *facepalm* .  And guess what? It made me reminisce back all the memories of being a...

When I’m yawning and feeling restless, only you seem like spring out of this whole world, girl. When you look at me, you’re like a playful cat chasing a small butterfly. The soft sunshine shines down on you right now. You’re my butterfly with a light movement. Come and fly over to me. You’re my butterfly. Every day you bring a new spring, a happiness to me. Hey girl, will you follow me? To the white clouds over there? Hey girl, when I follow you, I start to smile. You came to me like spring. Worried that it’ll end when you open your eyes? Girl, don’t worry. Are these is the feelings of love? Don’t doubt, don’t worry, don’t ask. If I’m with you, whenever, wherever, it is like a field filled with flowers in a dream. You’re my butterfly. Follow the soft scent, the flowers and come to me. You’re my butterfly. I’ll give all the sweetness of the world to you. Dedicated to : Precious BB  ♥

Every time I thought of you, I cursed at you. That way, I felt a little better. I erased everything that might remind me of you. But still, there are too many memories. How can I call you? How can I call you after suddenly thinking about you? I’m still forgetting you. My heart is still in pain. I’m still hating you, I’m still forgiving you. Whatever you say, love is over. I’m going back to the days where I didn’t know you. I won’t say anything. I won’t show that I’m glad to talk to you. I’m trying to stop my heartbeat that I can hear with my ears so I’m not even breathing. I’m in enough pain. I’m not in pain because I miss you. Tears are falling because I just feel empty. I hope I won’t ever hear your voice again. 

Even though we argued a little yesterday, today we are laughing and embracing each other. Let’s make a promise. You are my best friend. Even if your worry may seem trivial, don’t hold it in but share it with each other. Promise me one more time. When you laugh, I’m happy too. When you’re sad, my eyes tear up as well. I’ll always be your strength and your best friend. If you find a good movie, a song or a guy, make sure to share it with each other. Let’s make a promise together. Let’s not be stingy and buy meals for each other. Let’s make a promise with our finger. For me, when you’re not here I really feel lonely. For me, when you’re sick I can’t sleep. I am worry about you. Have faith and let's hold on together. No matter what I won’t be afraid. The word friendship may sound awkward but I think that word was created to describe us. There is only one of you in this world, my friend. You’re my joy and my soul. I’ll continue to treasure our importance. I love you. You’re my life...

I tried spending a day without you but the hellish pain traps me. I need to love without you but I don’t even have the smallest space. I cry out loud but you won’t hear and again today, I only say your name. I madly miss you, I miss you to death. I try to push you out but it’s only you in my mind. I tell myself that I’m over you but it’s only you in my mind. I keep missing you, I only miss you. I try to comfort myself, telling myself to stop but I can only forget you because my heart still remembers you. I throw a fit but I keep thinking of you. The longing words that come up to my throat... I love you. I madly love you, I love you to death. Though I curse, though I get angry, it’s only you in my mind. I only love you, I only love you to death because of this foolish love. It's only you because I only love you.